Recently, I was gifted with a beautiful moment where I cried TEARS OF JOY.My private client who I Skype with is recovering from anorexia. She finally drew a picture of her food, which I've been asking her to do for months. I asked if she would write a little something to accompany her drawing, which I included below. It's stunning.
But for me, every bite of every food has been a fear for so long. Locked in patterns of behaviour and thoughts about what is right and wrong to eat. Anorexia has ruled my life for 19 years. Wasted years of hospital wards, loneliness, over-exercising, and an inability to do anything that was not driven by the demands my illness put on me.
I am now 30, and just beginning to feel free. Little by little, I look at what I can eat to give me energy to live or how I can nourish myself to get the most of my day. I do not over-exercise anymore, but enjoy my daily yoga practise and have been working with Sophie to look at food as nourishment and goodness rather than what calorific value it has.
This is just a drawing of a banana, and yet it signifies the first time in months I allowed myself to eat food rather than just drink liquids before midday. I broke free this morning and ate my banana for breakfast along with my Green Dream drink.
And guess what? This is also the first time in months that I was rewarded by having the energy to draw this afternoon. My banana unlocked my creativity that has been buried away for so long, and it gave me such pleasure and joy.
Everybody has different challenges in their lives, and this is mine. But today is a good day, and I feel happy to be alive and on a journey to full health.
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